Hardt in the City

“Think about it. If you are single, after graduation there isn't one occasion where people celebrate you. ... Hallmark doesn't make a ‘congratulations, you didn't marry the wrong guy’ card. And where's the flatware for going on vacation alone?”
Sex and the City

I have been thinking about my singleness lately- all the good things, the bad, the questions, the what ifs, the whys and the might have beens. Here’s what I’ve discovered:

I’m a hopeless romantic- even though I try and convince everyone I’m not. I’ve fallen in love only 2 times in my life but I’ve had my heart broken by 3. I love taking a nap with someone on Sunday afternoons. I work on the top rated Sitcom but can’t wait to move into Environmental Documentaries. I love sex and am not ashamed to admit it. I’ve been vegan, vegetarian, carnivore, carb-free, carb-adict, you name it and I’ve tried it. Right now I just am me. I think walks in the moonlight are the best. Even though I know that he’s just not that into you if he isn’t calling I still will call him. I have 3 ex’s that call at least once a month. I love skinny-dipping. When I get nervous I become very bitchy and judgmental, which is why I’m a HORRIBLE first date. I’ve been set up on blind dates by all my friends and they have all been disasters. I’m still friends with the first guy I ever slept with. Though the last guy I slept with ended up blowing me off after only one date. I've planned every detail of my wedding even though I don’t know if I want to get married. I’m friends with everyone I’ve ever dated except one. I hate anyone being mad at me so I will always call and apologize even if they were in the wrong. I’m horrible with the morning after. I can’t sleep with someone in the bed with me but miss them once they are gone. I’ve only met one guy in a bar- and it was actually at the door to the bar. I don’t adhere to the 3 day calling rule or the 3 dates before sleeping with them rule! I don’t believe in Nice Guys, but still hope they are out there! I cry at happy endings. I waited until I was 23 to have sex for the first time. I believe in Soul Mates. I love cheesy horror movies. I’m the most insecure person you will ever meet. I love thunderstorms. I change my mind all the time. I’ve never received flowers from a boyfriend. I redecorate my bedroom every time I break up with someone. I wish on stars. I hate people not returning phone calls so no matter how mad I am with someone I will always call them back. I always second-guess myself. I’ve goggled everyone I’ve ever dated. I’m the queen of Drunk Dialing. I’ve killed every plant I’ve ever owned. I’m actually really shy which I try to disguise by being loud and outgoing. If you date me you will end up in one of my blogs. I don’t believe in secrets. My mom is my best friend. I love to dance but am horrible at it. I secretly wish I was a singer. I can’t wait to turn 30. And I will probably spend the rest of my life waiting for that Lloyd Dobbler moment- to see him standing outside of my window with a boom box over his head...